Shayeri #1

Batein jubaa se to mita diya humne..
Par dil se mita na sake..
Unse dur ho gaye lekin..
Jane kyun unhe bhula na sake..
Hasi labo pe thi lekin,
Akkhein khus na hue..
Dard chupana to aa hi gaya akhir,
Par mitana sikh na sake…

-swarnali

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The come back..

And after seven years they meet again…

One sudden flash of the mobile screen showing a name that’s engraved on her being forever.. she can forget anything but that name.. she was shocked to the core, her heart throbbing and shouting like a drum in her ears.. she still can’t believe her eyes.. and randomly typed what came to her mind..

“Is this true? Is this really true?” Her whole being shaking with the same question..

Few days have passed since then and she now know it’s true.. Her friend have come back.. finally the wait is over… Isn’t she waiting for quite some time now, or is it quite long time…

Seven years…

that one person who is part of your soul.. 

We have friends, and best friends, and boyfriends, but then there is this person who is none of it but all of it.. Who knows you atom by atom, who was there through everything, who understands what you are thinking even before you know, who shows all this mock frustration as soon as you start talking about the same age old love problem of yours, but you know she is listening and she is the one actually concerned, whose house is your second home as well and you feel like you are home whenever you enter that door, whom you can call in the middle of her important meetings and demand to bring kebab for you in the evening, who doesn’t agree with you almost on all topics but still somehow you survive all those big fights, you feel jealous when she falls in love and i mean real jealous, well she is everything, she is everywhere in your life, she is your Life, your soulmate.. And no matter what she is the one I cant afford to lose..
ever..
Love you Swthrt..

I let you go to love you more..

“..Ye sham jab bhi ayegi, tum hum ko yaad aaoge.
Ajeeb dasta hain ye..”
(Whenever this evening will come, so will your memories.
This story is so different.. )

Sometimes it’s hard to believe how hopelessly we fall in love with a name, with a picture, with a voice.. Every song every thought, every beat of your heart leads you there, to that one person.. And your day starts feeling incomplete without those thoughts, without that laugh.. You want to have it, make it yours.. And then slowly, or suddenly you realise, nothing belongs to you.. just like you don’t belong to anybody.. And you stop trying to clutch it anymore.. No matter how much you want it you don’t.. You let it go, you make them free.. Because even you know in your heart free is what you want to be.. And nothing is beautiful anymore when its caged..

what did i do wrong?

What is it that i did wrong?
What is it that i couldn’t get right?
I listened to everything they said,
I studied hard and passed all the tests..
I got a job for daily bread.
I even did everything i should, 
to be better person you see.
But then where exactly did i made the mistake?
That nothing finally seems to fall in place.
Why is it then i cant be happy?
And why is it i find myself lonely and depressed?
You may say happiness is an inner thing, 
And may be you are right..
But you see growing up with my family and friends,
Every one forgot to teach me
How to do that right.

-Swarnali

Deep enough.. 

You came like a lightening in my sky..
Everything felt so bright,
life shimmering with light..
So beautiful it was..
So beautiful and real..
But then you are gone..
And now its even more dark
and i cant see my starlights clear..
I know i will live
will find my way
and my stars will guide,..
But thanks to you,
Will never love lightning again..
Your scar is deep enough to remind..

-Swarnali

Winter

The winter reminds me of you..
This whispering winds..
The endless fields basking in the sun
And the veranda of my little house reminds me of you..
So far away from you in this unknown place..
So many years have passed since i lost you from my days..
And still the winter reminds me of you..
Theres so much still left to say, 
So much to tell you about everyday..
And i know i cant, no matter how much i want..
But till the day i know you are alive and well somewhere..
I dont care about those unspoken words..
I know winter will keep coming with your memories..
Winter will keep coming to remind,
Its you i have always loved
And cant stop as long as i breathe..

Swarnali

That day of Love

In her dream she was in a train,
Sitting by the window..
He was there in front of her,
Smiling with those eyes full of love..
The sky was cloudy,
The rain was yet to come..
It was a perfect day to fall in love..
The fields were all green as far as you can see..
And there was the horizon where in the sky, the trees set themselves free..
Its then he started to sing..
And her heart felt so small to hold in place all the happiness it brings..
She was still, looking into the distance
And was wishing to be like the fields that has no limit..
The wind was blowing fast over her face
And she wants him to be that wind to shiver like this whenever he will pass..
Was he her lover?
Oh yes he is..
And they lived happily ever after??
No.. Why not?
To keep that love alive..
Forever and beyond..

-swarnali

One day.. 

And there will be a day
When i am just a memory to you.
My name will blow with the fallen autumn leaves, by your door..
The morning sun will tell you
How we used to smile.
And then as the day will pass
You will remember, how our days went by.
In the park when you ride that swing
Will you remember how we fly in that thing?
At night when you will be alone and wake, 
Will you now ask atleast once,  
Why did all the dreames break? 
And in a cloudy day when you will be lonely
In that house we made,
Will you really feel? its just a memory now.. 
Will you remember? How much you left unsaid..

-swarnali

They are the Seasons..

Life, such a bizarre..
With happiness and pain walking side by side..
So many moments, so many memories..
So many people.. And good byes..
Some come and go like a beautiful butterfly touching you for a sec
And then gone..
Some are like the sunshine..
Always there to give you warmth and make your day bright..
Some are like a beautiful rainbow
a magical one that you rarely witness in your life..
And for a moment you feel like you can fly..
You know you are lucky..
But will you see them ever again..?
Then some are like clouds,
Makes you fall in love even with pain..
So many moments, so many memories..
So many people.. And good byes..
But these are the people who painted my life..
And they are the reason why in my life seasons come by..

-swarnali